In March of 2020, the global pandemic finally reached me in Cambridge, MA, and the world as I knew it came to a halt. I found myself stuck in a 200 square foot room with Matt, my partner, as the rest of the undergraduate dorm in which I work as a Graduate Resident Advisor was emptied. Attempting to continue my work online, I found myself displaced between a virtual and physical space. In this film, I sought to document the experience of losing myself in virtual space as well as losing connection with the physical space around me. The project began as a meditation on the space itself - taking careful inventory of what was there and where it came from: a couch, lamp, fridge stand, and bookshelf from previous tenants. A fridge, desk, curtains, and rug donated from friends and family. I assembled these objects and reconstructed the room in Rhino before uploading it to Unreal Engine. Through this mediated interface, I finally saw what this room could be - curated, crisp, with the sun always shining at the perfect angle. In fact, the more I stared at that room, the more I realized I hate my room. Perhaps what I wanted most was to upload myself and live there, not here.
